“Behind strong people, there is a story that gave them no choice.”
- Paulo Coelho (Brida)
It was February 14, 2015, and I was feeling great. It was my first time setting foot in the United States, a bucket list item I was quite doubtful that I would tick. Also, there was something about the cold breeze in San Francisco that I haven’t experienced before, having lived most of my life in a tropical country, the Philippines. Navigating my way through the BART railway system left me nothing but excited, “I was swimming through the tides of change, and this would change my life’s trajectory.” Despite the tension in the San Francisco job fair, I was in high spirits. It was one of the last job fairs of the hiring season and I hung on to my principal from IS Manila, who was recruiting in this fair as well, for support. My mentor, Simon Gillespie, helped me with all the preparations. I had a detailed CV, and I was armed with a couple of mental notes from several meetings and mock interviews. However, even after sending out letters of application to several prospective schools that fit my profile, there was one thing that I wasn’t prepared for, a handwritten note, “Jerome, I’m sorry to inform you that we only accept USA licensure. I hope you understand this as we are an American School with American Standards for foreign hires.”
Words sting and these were particularly haunting. Instantly, my towering spirits crumbled, I was questioning my worth and, at that moment, I felt defeated. Although, in this narrative, I chose to dwell on the resolution of my journey. To let yourself heal and still live with an open heart despite a defeat is a massive gift to the world and yourself. Six years later, I am currently teaching at the American International School of Johannesburg and have two other reputable international schools under my belt. In order to do better, we need to first acknowledge no matter how disheartening it is that race is a hindrance to success in the international school community, stories like this shouldn’t even be worth telling. I am fully aware that my journey seems like one in a thousand, brought by a stroke of luck and sheer determination, and it only proves how elusive the chances for success are for those who are marginalized by their nationality. The systemic racism in international schools has stripped me of several opportunities, disqualifies my experiences, and halts the potential of me being the best educator that I could be. I was left with a realization that I have far fewer chances and a much smaller margin for error.
When discussing diversity, people often bring up the idea of a tunnel, where the focus is on bringing in as many qualified, underrepresented, or underprivileged candidates as possible. But perhaps it’s time for a paradigm shift and thinking about it as less of a tunnel and more of tunnel water leakage. If we want to start to fix and seal the cracks and leaks that leave people behind, the first step we need to begin with is a safe space for dialogue on unspoken inequalities that we experience in the international school community, no matter how uncomfortable it could be.
In addition, we need more people championing this cause. I remember in moments of rejection, all I really needed was someone to believe in me. Malcolm Gladwell’s words helped me to identify my experience in a way that I wasn’t able to fully articulate myself, “To find and encourage talent, all you have to do as a society is to make sure the right doors are open. You raise your hand and say, ‘Over here!’ And the talent will come running, but that’s not true … It’s not resilient and shiny. Talent is fragile.” Yes, we could easily sign up for a job fair, but on top of this, we need champions that would help us jumpstart, sustain, and catalyze our success. We need an international school system that is brave enough to accept the leaks of this pipeline and willingly work together to repair it.
My first international school post was for Academia Cotopaxi in Quito, Ecuador. I was hired by our director, Madeleine Maceda Heide, a fellow Filipino. This showed me the importance of visibility and representation. It validated that I am good enough because our leader is proudly representing my roots and paving the way to rightfully take our place in this community. Madeleine changed everything. I hope she’s reading this since I don’t think I even said thank you enough. Thank you.
Later on, I worked at the International School of Tanganyika in Dar es Salaam, Tanzania, and the American International School of Johannesburg. In both of these schools, I was lucky enough to work with Filipino colleagues and a diverse roster of teachers. It’s often only possible for marginalized educators like me to reach their potential when we have a champion who can not only show us the way but help carry us there. These schools are that hero for me. Schools that believed in us, made opportunities happen for us, and persisted to take a chance based solely on our potential. It has helped me deal with the real battle that most marginalized people face which can be much more insidious and intangible - Internal Inferiority. Am I good enough? Do I really deserve this spot? How can I make up for my losses? I started off my rookie year abroad with an immigrant mindset: Keeping it under the radar, work hard, and constantly reminding myself not to burden others - you’re already lucky you made it here. Many times, I also felt awful and ashamed, wishing that I was born in another country and had better opportunities to have even a chance to meet the “American Standards.”
On top of that, I felt a huge weight on my shoulders. Many of us trying to build our portfolio from the ground up learned to adapt with survival instinct. Once you see a small window, you become laser-focused on that opportunity knowing fully that you are not allowed to mess up, not even once. Every day, I am reminded that my success is never owned, it is only rented, and the rent is due every day. You don’t take it for granted because you understand you’re playing by someone else’s rules. Even today, I often feel like that. Given the long odds, we fight to be where we are, it feels like we are always walking on thin ice and our world feels very fragile. It is exhausting. Fearing that at any moment, the clock could strike midnight, and all that we’ve worked hard for could be taken away from us. I hang on to colleagues and friends that I could openly talk to about these feelings, in an effort to strengthen and reinforce the reality of what we’ve built and our daily struggles. I hope you are able to find these support systems to keep you going.
My hope is that sharing my personal narrative will be an empowering way to raise a sense of urgency after revealing the challenges that our fellow educators face and finding ways on how we, as a community, are suited to help each other to do better. To everyone who resonates with this experience — who has felt like they don’t belong or aren’t good enough — the world needs to hear your story. Only then can we create a better chance at an opportunity that we once saw as elusive. And just remember: You are good enough. You deserve to be here.
Jerome Lingo is an international educator at The American International School of Johannesburg. He was born and raised in Manila and is a proud Filipino. Prior to South Africa, he taught in several international schools across the globe, namely, International School of Manila (Philippines), International School of Tanganyika (Dar es Salaam, Tanzania), and Academia Cotopaxi (Quito, Ecuador), where he co-built the first intensive learning support program in South America and had the privilege to present among other educators in Association of American Schools in South America (AASA) conference in Rio de Janeiro, Brazil. He is also a part of the MARIO Framework Educational Advisory Council, an educational movement partnering with teachers and schools around the world to reimagine special education in international schools, and serving as the Marketing and Communications Director for SENIA (Special Education Network and Inclusion Association) International Board.
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04/02/2022 - Chun Li
“The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy.”~Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.
What an important article. As a woman of color who has worked one of the more diverse schools that was mentioned, my experience was very similar to Mr. Lingo’s. Unfortunately for me, the support was few and far between. Everyday was a literal struggle within this “diverse” space . Therefore, the article made me question if when some speak of inclusion and equity if they are only considering those in similar ethic groups?
Mr.Lingo felt most supported by those within his ethnic group, and now considers himself a voice for change. It is important to note that when we have such profound feelings of systematic racism, as the author does, we truly understand that advocating means standing in the space and speaking up for ALL persons of color and not just those who look like us.
While his words are poignant, and he spoke of his truth, it only touches the surface of the discrimination found in international schools. There are many covert issues that should be addressed. However, the first step is speaking up in public and private spaces, even when it is uncomfortable to do so. That is how you empower others and ignite real change.
One might ask themselves, what was missing in this article? What can be worse than dealing with micro-aggression, overt racism and discrimination in top tier international schools ? The hard truth is people of color who witness racism being done to other persons of color, who join in with the oppressors to help themselves better assimilate, those who sit quietly as it happens and then write think pieces about the horrors of systemic racism.
Dr. King (the real champion of change) stated “ in the end we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends”. In other words, those of us who could have been courageous and righteous, but instead, sat quietly or joined in. You see, there is never any honor in acquiesce.
As a woman of color, I am one among many who are boldly maneuvering and finding their voice within international schools spaces. Often times it becomes mentally exhausting. Even so, those like myself will continue to speak up and take up space when we see acts of discrimination or inequity being done. I will continue to be a champion for ALL people of color, even when it is inconvenient and even when it means, I may be the hardest hit. In fact, I would even go so far as to encourage others to do so as well.
Nothing will change until the light that shines on these acts of inequality are as bold and blatant as the manipulative act itself. Speaking up for others(no matter who they are) never diminishes who you are, it only speaks of your true character.
I challenge all people working in international schools, to find their better angels, get to know people, remove themselves from the whispers and rumors and call out and recognize when racism shows up dressed as white fragility or assimilation. For those who continue to suffer in these spaces with limited support, please know that you are not alone. It is okay to leave if it gets to be too much. Protect your mental health. Peace awaits you on the other side
08/22/2021 - Elvira
Thanks for sharing your story, Jerome. I have faced my fair share of this in Asian countries where 'native speakers' or certain nationalities are preferred. Hopefully our voices will be heard, and change will come.
08/18/2021 - Queca
Thank you for sharing your story. All schools speak about international mindedness, but.... the buts.... are always there. Like ... "Sorry, you can not teach science as you are not a native speaker and you have a strong accent o your mother language," even having an Honors and a Masters in Science field, or even having done research in very recognized labs and institutions. I hope this change because there are real educators who seem not to hold the right passport.
08/11/2021 - Paola Torres
Mr. J!!! Thank you for inspiring us through your voice of courage. Way too many experience systemic racism and stories like yours influence change. Sooo proud of you!
08/07/2021 - Ganga
Thanks for sharing your story. It truly inspires, I believe rejection makes us to be strong. I am from India with good hands on experience and sound knowledge on administration. With this confidence, I tried to work in Usa, as you said it started with rejection. With this rejections, I realized that I need more exposure on education standards of abroad countries. I've started to dig, to learn and will never stop till I reach on what do I want achieve
08/04/2021 - Sharon
Thank you for sharing your thoughts and experiences. It’s nice to know there are schools and administrators out there in the world who recognize that a mere piece of paper doesn’t make a person. I celebrate your successes and wish you all the best as you continue your international educator journey. Keep up the great work!
08/04/2021 - Vanessa Weber
J - thank you for always striving, thriving and never settling. Your work makes me work harder for educational systems and our students everyday. Your vulnerability and honesty inspire us all.
08/03/2021 - Grace
A very comprehensive selection. I admire Jerome's courage to improve for the future following the American culture. He has patience, determination to improve in all aspects, to embrace changes for better educational system. With his abilities, talents, knowledge, he was able to land to better jobs that compensated for his willingness to practice paradigm shift. Congrats Jerome. You are successful in all ways. More power!